> ## Content Index > Fetch the complete content index at: https://www.bramadams.dev/llms.txt > Use this file to discover other available public pages before exploring further. # Should I Call First? - URL: https://www.bramadams.dev/should-i-call-first/ - Published: 2026-07-16T20:16:30.000Z - Updated: 2026-07-16T20:16:30.000Z - Description: Waiting feels like gathering information, but often it's just another way of avoiding the risk of being known. - Author: Bram Adams - Tags: instabram ## **How to Talk About Books You Haven't Read** by Pierre Bayard ~~The Tiv teach us about the internal books we have as a collective...~~ The inner book is ~~strived for as an individual, but~~ only seen in fragments, and reworked ~~the moment books are read~~ by our imaginations... Every writer who has spoken to ~~one of~~ their readers has experienced an uncanny valley of what they meant by what they wrote, versus what they hear back about what they wrote according to the reader... ~~The anxiety of the writer increases as we discuss his work ... you've got the wrong guy!..~~ The only reasonable thing to do is to praise a book as ambiguously as possible... ## **Boredom** by Alberto Moravia Going down a staircase while expecting another step, causing the mind and body to break pace with each other, and stumble... He \[Balestrieri\] memorized the number, but went back to the address book from time to time to run his finger over it and remember the first time... A man who was dead and who she knew was dead... Is that you, Mauro?.. ~~Catatonically –~~ should I be the first to call, or should I wait for her to call me? *she calls, but* I did not receive the power I expected, I got nothing in reality... Painting alone would fill the void in my life that she would leave... The empty canvas is frightened, but docile. It can lead to anything, but cannot endure everything... Her whole body seemed to attract my glances the way the dry Earth swallows the rain... Her big, dark eyes rested upon me, and yet she did not see me... With Cecilia, I could only be bored, or suffer... ## Japanese Homework continues to pile up... ![](https://storage.ghost.io/c/0c/cc/0ccc9a8d-054a-4056-b11e-e1bfbbb66387/content/images/2026/07/Screenshot-2026-07-16-15-46-39.png) ChatGPT for real world sentences... Hiragana I recognize but then forget later: [か](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/%E3%81%8B?ref=bramadams.dev), [あ](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/%E3%81%82?ref=bramadams.dev),[せ](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/%E3%81%9B?ref=bramadams.dev), [た](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/%E3%81%9F?ref=bramadams.dev), [へ](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/%E3%81%B8?ref=bramadams.dev), [れ](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/%E3%82%8C?ref=bramadams.dev), [が](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/%E3%81%8C?ref=bramadams.dev), Hiragana I recognize and remember: [い](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/%E3%81%84?ref=bramadams.dev), [く](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/%E3%81%8F?ref=bramadams.dev), [こ](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/%E3%81%93?ref=bramadams.dev), [し](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/%E3%81%97?ref=bramadams.dev), [す](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/%E3%81%99?ref=bramadams.dev), [と](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/%E3%81%A8?ref=bramadams.dev), [の](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/%E3%81%AE?ref=bramadams.dev), [む](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/%E3%82%80?ref=bramadams.dev), [り](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/%E3%82%8A?ref=bramadams.dev), [ぶ](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/%E3%81%B6?ref=bramadams.dev), [ん](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/%E3%82%93?ref=bramadams.dev) Japanese sentences end in verbs?.. Present and future share the same tense?.. ## Gym ![](https://storage.ghost.io/c/0c/cc/0ccc9a8d-054a-4056-b11e-e1bfbbb66387/content/images/2026/07/Screenshot-2026-07-16-15-55-43.png) The AQI is too bad to go to the gym today ## Studies ![](https://storage.ghost.io/c/0c/cc/0ccc9a8d-054a-4056-b11e-e1bfbbb66387/content/images/2026/07/IMG_2680.jpeg) ![](https://storage.ghost.io/c/0c/cc/0ccc9a8d-054a-4056-b11e-e1bfbbb66387/content/images/2026/07/IMG_2681.jpeg) ## Etc I changed my home screen to be aspirational, but I still end up on YouTube and Instagram Reels... ![](https://storage.ghost.io/c/0c/cc/0ccc9a8d-054a-4056-b11e-e1bfbbb66387/content/images/2026/07/IMG_2677.PNG) ![](https://storage.ghost.io/c/0c/cc/0ccc9a8d-054a-4056-b11e-e1bfbbb66387/content/images/2026/07/IMG_2679-1.PNG) Teleprompter <3 Silence Removal Just start. Make a plan that is easy, and includes progressive overload... 1. <...> brackets in Field Notes indicate a #[instabram](https://www.bramadams.dev/tag/instabram/) related concept (or for books: B#P#\[...\]) 2. [Hire an elf](https://www.instagram.com/p/DZVG7D9gxQK/?ref=bramadams.dev) 3. Collect assets 1. ChatGPT Title + Excerpt 2. Images 4. Screen Record for YouTube 5. Upload to [https://www.youtube.com/@InstaBramStudies](https://www.youtube.com/@InstaBramStudies?ref=bramadams.dev)