anime
September 2 2023
A lot of calories!
Simon Sarris
I watch these videos, read essays like "Patina and Intimacy," and feel this curious churn inside. Somewhere in the blurry boundaries of envy, thrill, and longing. I'm envious because a lot of pictures and items in these videos and essays look bewitching, mainly because they carry the weight of time — they're worn and loved for years. Software, though, it doesn't echo the same sentiment. It gobbles up the old as it races forward, much like trap music swallowed the raw edge of old school hip hop.
Working for beauty in software is what gets me up in the morning, but I confess, my CSS skills are a bit tragic. Likewise, tools like Unity, they're not my cup of tea. So, in my own way, I am, trying to carve beauty in code, to weave unique patterns in programming, to make something beautiful out of 0 and 1.
August 23 2023
Out-of-towners often mistake Manhattan as the whole of NYC, I feel.
Out-of-towners often mistake Manhattan as the whole of NYC, I feel. Take the time to explore spots like Bay Ridge, or Cortelyou Road.
You'll find calm there, perhaps even a surprising dose of the suburban. The real perk of living in an area like Bay Ridge vs a suburb outside of Corpus Christi? A train line linking you straight to the heart of Union Square or Grand Central in under an hour.
Bram Adams
When you see those tier 7 minions in your game, do me a favor, grab Tess. Just trust me on this.
Bram Adams
I am the one who decides.
The gallery feature on Ubud is acting up. Beats me why.
Trying out Spear in Discord. Maybe it's something that could tickle the fancy of vault members, make them feel special. Definitely can picture it being a neat bonus!
Another day done, neatly cut into boxes of time. This time block journal, it's kind of become a friend. Excited to think where I might be in a few months - maybe a master at wrestling time.
GPT helps me to write, and I like that. It’s like the words I jot down aren't my own, they’re not precious. So, when it comes to chopping them up and pruning them, I don't flinch. And, there's something cool about typing in shorthand, or even in low key, lowercase letters. GPT just takes it, and churns out sentences that sound as real as rain splattering on a windowpane.
An Awkward Yet Healthy Relationship
A collection of brother relationships in anime
Rin saying this is a great break from the norm of tyrant older brother trope in anime.
Itachi and Sasuke Take Notes
Starts evil, becomes good
Killua and Illumi Take Notes
Starts evil, stays evil
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I'll Hit Your Glu-Bock Eventually
Now for your other Glu-Bock!
Gohan smash effeminate alien! Gohan strongest there is![1]
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Anger Can't Wash Over You Legally Without Your Consent - 202301090001
Eren and Mikasa Giving the Same Energy in AoT Endings
Corporate wants us to spot the differences. They're the same picture.
ED 1: Mikasa Surrounded by Knives
Akuma No Ko: Eren Surrounded by Flowers
They're both wearing the scarf too! Before/after their first encounter, perhaps?[1]
EDIT: I'm not the only one who thought so apparently, lol.
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Killua's Gambling Addiction
Does Killua have a gambling addiction?
Me clicking through every slide of the mandatory HR training module without observing a single piece of information https://t.co/oqiEQT4ivU
— Work Retire Die (@WorkRetireDie) November 8, 2022
I find it funny that it was just a sidenote in the series that Killua may or may not have a gambling addiction. Probably more healthy than Gon's quirk to ask anyone anything at anytime, tho.[1]
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Gon Carries Killua, For Once
Also, one of the few (only?) times in the series Gon carries Killua
Ego-San on the Sting of Defeat
Facing cognitive dissonance due to the failure of a goal requires choosing between delusion, metamorphosis, or quitting.
To give up your dream for the pursuit of it forms cognitive dissonance on multiple layers.
- The initial goal, G, was not achieved, so the mind has to contend with absolute failure. The system (other people, the planet, whatever) has rejected you from attaining the goal you set, despite your best efforts.
- Any future time spent on the dream becomes a sunk cost fallacy (I got this good, so I can't stop now, right?). As a fallacy, it only continues to get worse. Confirmation bias (which can be avoided with a simple strategy that is discussed below[1]) also prevents you from seeing other routes, locking your routine into the literal definition of insanity: “doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results.”[2]
- The self you've cultivated and the strategy you have chosen have failed to materialize, and you realize you can't become the person you needed to be to attain your ultimate goal due to a combination of values/self-belief/etc.
In order to break the cognitive dissonance that is born from this paradox, the goal-failer faces a crossroads:
- Option one is to delude themselves into thinking that they never wanted the goal to begin with (sour grapes). This is a poor long term strategy due to the investment spent in fulfilling the goal with limited resources (financial, time, etc). Delusion is chosen carefully as a word here. It is delusion because you know the truth. You know you have failed to do what you set out to do. As a defense mechanism, you pivot to protect the visage of self you've put effort into.
- Option two is to transform into the person that can attain your dream. Much like how Barou realized there was no satisfaction to his goal of becoming the world's best striker by playing the way he always has, he was forced to evolve into a new person through the despair. The impossible combination of his ego, his skill, and the reality of the other players on the pitch broke him at his base and a new person was formed. This metamorphosis is a new person, with a new hypothesis and a new set of values, with the same goal. The Bayseian updating part of the mind takes in the new data and reformats the core assumption.[3]
- This new person as a willful organism has their goal in the front of their mind and can only be stopped by the laws of the universe (physics, genetics, etc.). In the long term, this strategy also succeeds at removing cognitive dissonance, but importantly, does not involve delusion. The goal-failer accepts their failure into their hearts and realizes to become the success they envision, the only route forward is to sacrifice the version of themselves that prevent attainment of their goal.
- Quit. Self explanatory.
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Pour One Out for the Victims of Truck-Kun
Let's take a second to mourn the victims of Truck-Kun.
Another one bites the truck!
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Even Togashi, my favorite mangaka of all time fell prey to the plot device of Truck-Kun
Et tu, Mobbu?
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